I sit here at my computer while Master sits as His wondering if our lives will ever be truly what I am looking for or if it is just fun and games for Him. I have, on random occasion, been defiant and unruly just to see if He is paying attention and if He will punish me in some way.
Nothing…nothing ever happens. He is my husband and I know this is new to us both, but I am serious in my servitude and wish for Him to be just as serious in his Dom’ing. I don’t know how to go about bringing this subject up with Him, I worry that he will think badly of me, or that I am trying to top from the bottom. This is something he had wanted for a long time, and within the last year I have finally opened myself up enough to realize this is the path I wish to take. So why is He not doing what I need? I know he KNOWS what to do and how to be, but I wonder…is it just the kink He is interested in? Dom’ing me only in the bedroom and not in life? Why are the questions even there, shouldn’t I already know the answers to these questions? Why are they even questions I am questioning?
Master…I need you to be my Master.
I need you to Dom me in every aspect.
I am your wife, but even as your wife my servitude is there and always has been.